I honestly don’t know what I have done to make this all happen again, not hanging out, doing my own thing, and keeping myself busy. Does that really build an equation to get hated on? Not being around, trying to get my stuff straighten out, is that really the components that build beefin? Well obviously it does!! I’ve been through this bullshit already this summer and I hear its building up again?? What have I done? NOTHING…Literally NOTHING!! I know what I did this past summer and yes I admit to all the things I didn’t see what I was doing, but honestly what have I done to make this happen again? NOTHING!! Tell me to my face, tell me and dont talk about me behind my back and let it hang around until it gets worse. TELL ME, be a man about it. Tell me what I have done to make YOU feel this way. YOU tell me how I have changed…I honestly don’t get how this all happened again, and then I hear the word BEEFIN getting thrown around. Oh c’mon, grow up seriously. Yes Ill admit Im venting on tumblr but its for you to know that I know now.
I didn’t know staying busy, studying, going to work, staying in and getting sleep effected someones relationship with his friends, but wow I guess I have come to that conclusion. I rarely get free time and when I do, I’m lazy trying to catchup on sleep. So Im asking YOU again. What have I done to have this happen to me again?
BETRAY-To be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling: to betray a trust.
ABANDON-to give up; discontinue; withdraw from
If you havent noticed I’m actually furious about this topic because, these are people that are obviously effected by me betraying them? ABANDONING THEM? TURNING MY BACK ON THEM? You guys act like I dont want to hang around you, but I do. Wait I did. After I hear this its unfair, it has gone to far and why? I don’t have time, Im trying to get everything straightened out. My friends are the ones that I thought had my back, even through those times I didn’t see them for a while they would still be there. Even though we havent hung out you act like I have totally erased you, so how am I hated on?
Well heres something for you, now this has all come out I might as well say it now. Its been weird between us because you’ve made it weird. Im pretty sure you wouldn’t wanna hang out with anyone that you felt there was tension with anyways. If you don’t wanna hang out or have something thats bothering you about me just say it.
Im honestly in disbelief right now, everything around me is crumbling down right before my eyes. And I dont know what I have done to deserve this. No one deserves to be in the position I’m in right now. IM ACTUALLY A HATED PERSON. Some one that people doesnt want around, when I heard this it almost made me break down because the situation that you have just read is not the only one happening. theres another one and I wasn’t even aware of. People not wanting me around, people not enjoying my company or my presence. Im ANNOYING. It seems people have so much hatred towards me.
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS!?
Now please excuse me as I isolate myself from everyone around me, I feel like I cant trust anyone more.
Bye bye and thank you,
James L. Bugay
1 note ∞ May 1st, 2011 at 11:22 pm
